After many years of wanting a sewing money, I got one from my friend. Since getting the machine I did not open it, I got the sewing machine 4 or 5 weeks ago, when I got it I was extremely happy. I got sick for a few weeks, and then the Holiday was upon us, so I ended up not creating an area to sew.
The reason I am writing about getting this sewing machine is because one of my dreams was to become a seamstress as a child, I was inspired as a tiny human when I would get fitted for my school uniform. I would have my uniforms tailor made and I was so fascinating about this that I thought that was what I wanted. To have the different shades of whites, or even the different fabrics in the shade of white and feeling the fabric on my skin made me fall in love with making my own clothing and even making it for people.
The idea was always a fun sweet pleasant dream, but I never took initiative into learning more than sewing buttons or even sewing a tear in my jeans. When I told my family how excited I was about that Idea, back then it was this idea that I should become a nun to devote my life to god, a doctor to help the sick, a lawyer to right the wrongs of the world or an engineer which I think was inspired by my uncle. My mom thought I was so smart and could put my abilities to better use than to become a seamstress.
Looking back, I thought the adults were right, I felt safe and knew they would not push me towards a path that would be the "wrong one" and given Ill admit that I should have fought more for the little things, but it got to the point where I felt bad for being a rebellious child. I tend to be a quiet kid, but would say slick things here and there and each time I would say something that was against what they would say I felt like I was not being grateful. As a child, my parents did not spank me which was something that was done, and I would not be chastised. I would hear the stories and thought how great I had it and I should be grateful to them, and of course my grandpa back then always told me when the time came I would shine doing anything I set my mind to.
I am very excited to have time to pick up a hobby, and dip my toes and enjoy doing the small passion projects. I look forward to sharing my journey, and what I have made.
